Sitting in my room, without anything to do, i looked towards the table clock, toppled right now, gifted by a very dear friend. The table-piece displays the time in digital format and also today's date and day( like mon, tue, wed, thu, fri, sat, sun ). Looking at it I just wondered what was it for. Was it gifted for some special reason. Did the friend know then, how easily i waste my time. Was it there to remind me every second, not to waste the next one. I say i have nothing to do right now, ironically, i can think, right at this same moment, there is so much to do. There is so so so much to do. How am i gonna do what i want to do if i waste my resources like this. And just when these embarrasing thoughts were crossing ma mind, the flashing colon in the time display ':' appeared as if eyes of the clock, watching me!!! Infact the zero following it seemed to complete the smiley ':o' thus showing surprize. Was the clock surprized at me. Did it know, wat i was going thru inside. It was 22:09 then, and the very next moment, it changed to 22:10. RELAXED!!! I felt. for now the smiley had changed to ':|' showing straight face. Hence no care, no, nothing at all. But something serious had crossed my mind in this moment. Was the clock looking at me this way daily, every instant, every moment. It shows 'THU' as day. I wonder if it was hindi waala 'thoo' at me. Wat is the clock thinking when it changes to ':2', ':3', ':4', ':5', and just when i was pondering this, there was a voice
:| - what r u doing??
me - nothing??
:| - y nothing??
me - i dont have anything to do right now!!
:| - oh! i see! then it is okay, if u got no work, what can u probably do?? okay bye then ( and just then the face changed to ':2', try visualizing the digital '2', its such a wierd look )
me - hey wait wait!!! dont u have any empathy wid me!!
:2 - wat?? empathy?? me?? lolzz!!!
me - hey wait!!
:2 - wait?? u silly!! u dont know kya!! i dont wait for anybody!!!
me - awwwwwww ( crying in one of my friend's style ), i need u, dont go away, i need u!! be my friend, be with me!! plzz!!
:2 - u moron!! i make no friends!!! Not atleast you!!
me - ??!!!!!!! yyyyy??? wat did i do???
:3 - thats the thing buddy, u dont do anything!!! i watch u all day!!! u just so grossly disrespect me!!! how can u think of me being friends with you!!!
me - oh!! wat should i do!!! i didnt mean to hurt you!! its just that m too lazy!!!
:3 - no u r not!!! its just a mental block. You gotta remove it. Will take big effort though, but once removed you can move anything.
me - ohh!!! is it!!! ( like i really care )
:3 - yups!!!
me - can u atleast gimme some tips, how to remove the mental block, how to make more of my time!!! (again, as if i care )
:3 - no buddy, i said i make no friends, u have to help urself to overcome this mental block!!!
me - k then, chalo kuch planning vagarah karta hun.... ( phatte )
and just then, the smiley changed to ':4' , the digital four, thus the conversation ended abruptly, and me still again sitting without any work, without anything to do, no effect of the clock's talk, still watching the clock's tick ( read flashing colon )!!!
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
@my_friends_at_IITR
Here is a post dedicated completely to my friends at IITR. Actually i had been thinking of writing some such stuff for a long time now, but everytime i sat, i could not find the right way to do so, then seeing the recent post by little known chuha ( a.k.a harsh ), and also little inspired by it, i decided to let it go simple... so here goes... their probable future as i see....
1.Mr. Hussain (urf Mr. Monotonous Looks ) – I think he will carry the same looks, if i by chance happen to see him after ‘n’ years, no matter how small or how big a value of ‘n’ one may choose.
2.Mr. Kush – Will one day die out of miserliness. I guess that is one strong reason of his strong body.
3.Mr. Bond – Abey kaika bond, kuch nahi aata saale ko, kitni baar iski saari bondgiri dhari reh gayi!!!! Will definitely loose the title soon!! No doubt!!
4.Mr. Sunil and Mr. Manish – Our Black diamonds. Mere 2 anmol ratan!!
5.Mr Nippi – High probability of getting raped. Cant say if it will be some girl or some gay.
6.Mr Rustagi – In urgent need of a shoulder uplift surgery. All blame goes to the infi workload he takes.
7.Master Balak – High tendency of getting murdered for his innocent acts!!!
8.Mr Venkat – Information guru of the future. Very less credibility though.
9. Mr Lalu – I guess 'chote' suits him better, will replace our PM some day, and arrange free drinks and parties for everyone, every saturday night!!!
10. Mr. Me – The tall, dark, handsome angel, will change the world!! ;)
11. Miss Sant - Cant say very surely, but may b a large part of her life will be dedicated to community service, might come to b known as Mother Teresa 2 in future.
Now that i am liking this future forecasting, lemme extend this to some of our Gurus of this sem also...
12. Mr Rotations Per Minute – Unprobable future!!!
13. Mr SPY – Will go to Hell, meri badd-dua hai.
14. Mr Fernandes – Will meet heaven, coz of so lots of duaen all the students give him.
P.S - Waise 'chote' suits equally to the little personality, presently known as 'Bond'. Who knows!! This might be his next title!!!!
1.Mr. Hussain (urf Mr. Monotonous Looks ) – I think he will carry the same looks, if i by chance happen to see him after ‘n’ years, no matter how small or how big a value of ‘n’ one may choose.
2.Mr. Kush – Will one day die out of miserliness. I guess that is one strong reason of his strong body.
3.Mr. Bond – Abey kaika bond, kuch nahi aata saale ko, kitni baar iski saari bondgiri dhari reh gayi!!!! Will definitely loose the title soon!! No doubt!!
4.Mr. Sunil and Mr. Manish – Our Black diamonds. Mere 2 anmol ratan!!
5.Mr Nippi – High probability of getting raped. Cant say if it will be some girl or some gay.
6.Mr Rustagi – In urgent need of a shoulder uplift surgery. All blame goes to the infi workload he takes.
7.Master Balak – High tendency of getting murdered for his innocent acts!!!
8.Mr Venkat – Information guru of the future. Very less credibility though.
9. Mr Lalu – I guess 'chote' suits him better, will replace our PM some day, and arrange free drinks and parties for everyone, every saturday night!!!
10. Mr. Me – The tall, dark, handsome angel, will change the world!! ;)
11. Miss Sant - Cant say very surely, but may b a large part of her life will be dedicated to community service, might come to b known as Mother Teresa 2 in future.
Now that i am liking this future forecasting, lemme extend this to some of our Gurus of this sem also...
12. Mr Rotations Per Minute – Unprobable future!!!
13. Mr SPY – Will go to Hell, meri badd-dua hai.
14. Mr Fernandes – Will meet heaven, coz of so lots of duaen all the students give him.
P.S - Waise 'chote' suits equally to the little personality, presently known as 'Bond'. Who knows!! This might be his next title!!!!
Friday, August 24, 2007
@msg of a dream
Ok,how many of u ever wondered, bout dreams, bout why they occur, and what they tell. Although there are lots of different speculations bout what dreams actually tell, but for me, dreams depict the real me. If anybody ever wants to know his true characteristics, his true nature, then dreams are the source. In our day-to-day experiences, we see a lot of things, we hear a lot of things, we learn a lot of things, and we change ourself accordingly. Sometimes, u portray false, which then becomes a habit and finally u are confused bout your real nature. It happens to all of us at some or other point of life. We find ourself in a dilemma as to whether we will be doing a particular act when in some particular situation. For example many times i think, will i stand for my friends, will i b there for my family, will i ever stop being ignorant, will i be this, will i b that blah blah blah!!! Coz these are questions which u can find answers to, only after u have been through such a situation!!! Otherwise the mind, just keeps giving clever,manipulated,politically correct answers!! So how do you find the real you, may b this the picture, where dreams enter in!! Since u can not manipulate a dream, thus they are bound to be true portrayal of urself to urself!!! If ever u dream, that u are crying on loosing a special friend, then u probably will, no matter how much emotionally strong u feel from inside, if ever u dream that u betrayed a friend for some mean purpose, then some day u wont think twice while doing the same, no matter how good a friend u r. For example, last night i remember a dream where i slapped my lil' sis' repeatedly for not telling who destroyed my laptop. Infact this dream was the sole inspiration for writing this post!! I was asking her a serious question, and she kept laughing without answering the question!! Now, this tells me, what i tend to do instinctively, if i really fall for such a situation, but my conscious tells me that i wont do any such stupidity, coz i love her the most in this world, nobody.. literally nobody.. ever has meant so much to me as her!!! Neways, leave that, all in all, i just want to say that dreams depict ur instincts!! You might act differently owing to ur conscious!! May b, we can learn what things to change in us, by analyzing our dreams!!! May be this is the sole purpose of our dreams!! Who knows!!!
Thursday, July 12, 2007
@U R Hacked
That was my orkut name, a couple of minutes ago!!! Yes!! While i was chatting with a friend of mine, i noticed that my name on orkut, had changed... it was showing 'U R'... i thought, it was some anamoly, so i refreshed the page and the name was still there. then i moved to my profile page, and what i saw forced me to drop my lower jaw down!! the complete name was 'U R Hacked'!!! I told it to my friend to confirm... and it was confirmed!!! My account had been hacked!! what cud i do!! I logged out first and tried logging in with my password.. to check if the password is still the same.. to my relief i successfully logged in. The very next minute, i changed my password!!! Well after all, i use same google account to login all the google services. After that, i thanked the hacker, for forcing me to change my password!!!
To me, it was an experience, first of its kind. I always used to believe, internet accounts arent hacked randomly... y on earth will somebody hack my account... but now m sure.. there are certain mischievious people, who do it randomly for fun. Me included!! Actually, me too once cracked an orkut account of one of my friends.I changed her name to 'Holy Witch', changed her profile to match that of an alien's from some planet at the outskirts of our galaxy, also uploaded a deformed display pic!! At that time, i had not realized how shockingly cool stuff it cud be, that was only half as much fun as this one. I cud not help but recall everything i did!! This person who hacked my account didnt do anything more than changing my name!! So kind of him!! He cud have messed up with my scrapbook, my friendlist, cud have scrapped crap scraps to my friends, cud have sent hundreds of friend requests.. but he didnt do anything!!!! Was it all, just to teach me a lesson!! If yes, buddy, i learnt only one thing.. HACKING IS COOL!!!
To me, it was an experience, first of its kind. I always used to believe, internet accounts arent hacked randomly... y on earth will somebody hack my account... but now m sure.. there are certain mischievious people, who do it randomly for fun. Me included!! Actually, me too once cracked an orkut account of one of my friends.I changed her name to 'Holy Witch', changed her profile to match that of an alien's from some planet at the outskirts of our galaxy, also uploaded a deformed display pic!! At that time, i had not realized how shockingly cool stuff it cud be, that was only half as much fun as this one. I cud not help but recall everything i did!! This person who hacked my account didnt do anything more than changing my name!! So kind of him!! He cud have messed up with my scrapbook, my friendlist, cud have scrapped crap scraps to my friends, cud have sent hundreds of friend requests.. but he didnt do anything!!!! Was it all, just to teach me a lesson!! If yes, buddy, i learnt only one thing.. HACKING IS COOL!!!
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
@Malvika Shah
Before u start wondering!! Let me introduce u to Malvika Shah(unreal name for a real personality)!! And, plzzz, she is not the one!! :)
Another matchstick girl!! She was my classmate, when i entered my new school in 9th class!! and i remember... she was among my first few friends there. She had messed up wid almost half of the class. Every now and then, somebody or other, wud keep advicing me, not to talk to her!! Infact i remember.. ek baar toh ek friend ke saath... baat friendship par aa gayi thi... that if i talked to this girl again, we wont remain friends then!!! But i took my chance and managed to b friends with both of them somehow :) lucky me!!! They told me, she had loadza attitude!!
After dropping from the school after 10th... no contacts wid her for approximately 3 yrs!! Then 1 day i went to meet an old chap and i was shocked to learn that she lived just opposite to him!!! and she greeted me with same cheerful smile!! Wow!! i felt!! then it became a regular stuff!! Every time i come back home from rrk.. i meet both of them... and she will always be there, wearing the same smile.. always!!
U might be wondering, y m giving so much stress on her smile!! Well!! she has a killer smile!! U just need to see her smile once, to fall in love with her!!! just now i did a video chat with her!! and gosh!! i cud not remove my eyes off her!! I kept typing things, which made her smile!! naughty me!! ;) infact, it was her smile, that forced me to write a post completely dedicated to her. And yes, ek baat aur bata dun, she does have loadza attitude, woh bhi thoda idiotic types, par chalta hai... and lemme tell u.. very few of her friends might b knowing this.. but she is really a friend-in-need-is-a-friend-indeed type ki friend.. u juuustt need to set the chemistry.
Another matchstick girl!! She was my classmate, when i entered my new school in 9th class!! and i remember... she was among my first few friends there. She had messed up wid almost half of the class. Every now and then, somebody or other, wud keep advicing me, not to talk to her!! Infact i remember.. ek baar toh ek friend ke saath... baat friendship par aa gayi thi... that if i talked to this girl again, we wont remain friends then!!! But i took my chance and managed to b friends with both of them somehow :) lucky me!!! They told me, she had loadza attitude!!
After dropping from the school after 10th... no contacts wid her for approximately 3 yrs!! Then 1 day i went to meet an old chap and i was shocked to learn that she lived just opposite to him!!! and she greeted me with same cheerful smile!! Wow!! i felt!! then it became a regular stuff!! Every time i come back home from rrk.. i meet both of them... and she will always be there, wearing the same smile.. always!!
U might be wondering, y m giving so much stress on her smile!! Well!! she has a killer smile!! U just need to see her smile once, to fall in love with her!!! just now i did a video chat with her!! and gosh!! i cud not remove my eyes off her!! I kept typing things, which made her smile!! naughty me!! ;) infact, it was her smile, that forced me to write a post completely dedicated to her. And yes, ek baat aur bata dun, she does have loadza attitude, woh bhi thoda idiotic types, par chalta hai... and lemme tell u.. very few of her friends might b knowing this.. but she is really a friend-in-need-is-a-friend-indeed type ki friend.. u juuustt need to set the chemistry.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
@my permanent attire
Just a few minutes back... i was looking into the mirror... was wondering... what is happening to me these days... suddenly i noticed my attire, it seemed incomplete... i smiled.. and it was complete now... i wished i cud talk to it... and just then came a voice... what followed was a big.. big.. really big conversation... here it is..
Me: Hi u, m really frustrated of u now!!
Smile: ?? why?? what happened??
Me: they say... u r always there with me.. cant u leave me alone, for sometime!!!
Smile: who says!!!
Me: my friends.. all of them.. even if it is a text chat.. they tell me u r always there with me!!!
Smile: All fools they are!! Only i know.. thats my clone!!! infact u also know it.. y dont u tell the the truth!!!
Me: what!! hehe!! me!!! u gone out of ur senses kya??? accha leave that... tell me one thing!!
Smile: what??
Me: y is ur army so spread up in my locale!!
Smile: oh! that! well!! u see... the army is not so big... but u can see us in our original form only!!! thats y u feel like that...
Me: U mean the army of U turned upside down is bigger than Urs!!!
Smile: bigger!! we are just a small pebble before them!!
Me: what r u talking!!! didnt u read my last post!! i told it there... happiness is much more around than sadness...
Smile: didnt u listen to me u idiot!!! i told u just now... u can see us in our original form only!! u just dont see us turned upside down.
Me: Oh!!!!! what can i do to cure myself...
Smile: Cure!!! hehe!! u r absolutely fine man!! its they around u.. who need a cure!!!
Me: u making fun of me kya!!!
Smile: No no!! m serious!!
Me: accha so u mean one shud always see smiles around and wear a smile himself too!!!
Smile: yups!!
Me: no matter what happens???
Smile :no matter what happens!!!
Me: even if he/she looses the one he/she loves the most!!!!
Smile: yups!!
Me: u really gone mad!!! i m sure now!!!
Smile: arey i tell u the funda!!
Me: hmm...
Smile: its simple... the more u see us, the more we grow...
Me: okaaaaaaay... got it... so the same way.. the more i will see u turned upside down.. the more they will increase!!!
Smile: U r awesome man!! now u got the point!! So even if u cud wear our clones.. just do that!!! so that others will think they are looking at us... and thus we will grow!!
Me: okay!!! thanx for the funda!! i will always remember it!!
Smile: What thanx man!! its me who shud thanQ... after all.. u r among those very few... bcaz of whom my army is not extinct yet..
Me: hehe.. chalo i have to go to my lappy now... to chat with friends!! u coming with me??
Smile: nooo!!! i have to go.. u see we r so small in number!!! but will send a clone for u!! hope u dont mind!!!
Me: no i will b fine!! nice talking to u!!
Smile: okay then, c you later...
Me: hmm.. cya soon.. may be not with me.. but someone else!!!! bbyee...
Smile: byeee... tata... chao.. sayonara!!!!
Me: Hi u, m really frustrated of u now!!
Smile: ?? why?? what happened??
Me: they say... u r always there with me.. cant u leave me alone, for sometime!!!
Smile: who says!!!
Me: my friends.. all of them.. even if it is a text chat.. they tell me u r always there with me!!!
Smile: All fools they are!! Only i know.. thats my clone!!! infact u also know it.. y dont u tell the the truth!!!
Me: what!! hehe!! me!!! u gone out of ur senses kya??? accha leave that... tell me one thing!!
Smile: what??
Me: y is ur army so spread up in my locale!!
Smile: oh! that! well!! u see... the army is not so big... but u can see us in our original form only!!! thats y u feel like that...
Me: U mean the army of U turned upside down is bigger than Urs!!!
Smile: bigger!! we are just a small pebble before them!!
Me: what r u talking!!! didnt u read my last post!! i told it there... happiness is much more around than sadness...
Smile: didnt u listen to me u idiot!!! i told u just now... u can see us in our original form only!! u just dont see us turned upside down.
Me: Oh!!!!! what can i do to cure myself...
Smile: Cure!!! hehe!! u r absolutely fine man!! its they around u.. who need a cure!!!
Me: u making fun of me kya!!!
Smile: No no!! m serious!!
Me: accha so u mean one shud always see smiles around and wear a smile himself too!!!
Smile: yups!!
Me: no matter what happens???
Smile :no matter what happens!!!
Me: even if he/she looses the one he/she loves the most!!!!
Smile: yups!!
Me: u really gone mad!!! i m sure now!!!
Smile: arey i tell u the funda!!
Me: hmm...
Smile: its simple... the more u see us, the more we grow...
Me: okaaaaaaay... got it... so the same way.. the more i will see u turned upside down.. the more they will increase!!!
Smile: U r awesome man!! now u got the point!! So even if u cud wear our clones.. just do that!!! so that others will think they are looking at us... and thus we will grow!!
Me: okay!!! thanx for the funda!! i will always remember it!!
Smile: What thanx man!! its me who shud thanQ... after all.. u r among those very few... bcaz of whom my army is not extinct yet..
Me: hehe.. chalo i have to go to my lappy now... to chat with friends!! u coming with me??
Smile: nooo!!! i have to go.. u see we r so small in number!!! but will send a clone for u!! hope u dont mind!!!
Me: no i will b fine!! nice talking to u!!
Smile: okay then, c you later...
Me: hmm.. cya soon.. may be not with me.. but someone else!!!! bbyee...
Smile: byeee... tata... chao.. sayonara!!!!
Monday, July 9, 2007
@my sadness
why there is so much of happiness around...
m afraid...
not that it will all go away some day...
but, will it ever go away some day...
the birds are happy... trees are happy...
the winds are happy... oceans are happy...
why noone is sad around...
god.. i miss sadness..
damn its too short lived in my case..
i miss pain.. and its joy..
i miss sorrow.. lol, i know m an interesting boy...
plz god.. i beg ur throne..
dont wanna live in happiness alone...
so long i have lived this way..
m getting bored of it, plz make my day..
when was it last time i cried for over 7 minutes..i dont remember...
damn my lucky number 7 turns out unlucky everytime... i surrender...
7 didnt even work on 7-7-7...
i hate it, it brought me heaven...
offo, its heaven again..
y m i not in hell.. i miss my pain...
heaven, becoz i feel so relieved
damn my sadness has become too short lived...
m afraid...
not that it will all go away some day...
but, will it ever go away some day...
the birds are happy... trees are happy...
the winds are happy... oceans are happy...
why noone is sad around...
god.. i miss sadness..
damn its too short lived in my case..
i miss pain.. and its joy..
i miss sorrow.. lol, i know m an interesting boy...
plz god.. i beg ur throne..
dont wanna live in happiness alone...
so long i have lived this way..
m getting bored of it, plz make my day..
when was it last time i cried for over 7 minutes..i dont remember...
damn my lucky number 7 turns out unlucky everytime... i surrender...
7 didnt even work on 7-7-7...
i hate it, it brought me heaven...
offo, its heaven again..
y m i not in hell.. i miss my pain...
heaven, becoz i feel so relieved
damn my sadness has become too short lived...
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